永远的怀念(转)
李宝祥 于2016-11-06 13:26:59发表
我与母亲今生的距离，从此便隔着对整个秋天的怀念
英语部落
冰心在她的散文中说过“今生如果美好，我又何求来世，今生若不美好，我又何求来生。”大概，从我们被父母带到这世上的那一刻起，我们就对这个世界充满了眷恋和感恩。
史铁生在的散文《秋天的怀念》里，道尽了对母亲的感恩和怀念，以及那充斥于心间的悔恨之情。今天，我们一起欣赏史铁生的《秋天的怀念》。
双腿瘫痪后，我的脾气变得暴怒无常。
When my legs were first paralyzed, my temper became terrible.
望着天上北归的雁阵，我会突然把面前的玻璃砸碎；听着听着李谷一甜美的歌声，我会猛的把手边的东西摔向四周的墙壁。
Looking at the lines of wildgeese flying back north, I would suddenly smash the window pane in front of me. Listening tothe sweet songs sung by the famous singer Li Guyi, I would throw whatever happened to be onhand at the wall.
母亲就悄悄地躲出去，在我看不见的地方偷偷地听着我的动静。当一切恢复沉寂，她又悄悄地进来，眼边红红的，看着我。
On these occasions Mother would steal out quietly, watching me from a placewhere I could not see her. When I calmed down, she would come back softly and gaze at mewith sad eyes.
“听说北海的花儿都开了，我推着你去走走。”她总是这么说。母亲喜欢花，可自从我的腿瘫痪后，她侍弄的那些花都死了。
“They say that the flowers in Beihai Park are in bloom now. Let me wheel you there,” she usedto say. Mother loved flowers dearly, but ever since my legs became paralyzed, all her flowershad died.
“不，我不去！”我狠命地捶打这两条可恨的腿，喊着，“我活着有什么劲！”母亲扑过来抓住我的手，忍住哭声说：“咱娘儿俩在一块儿，好好儿活，好好儿活……”
“No, I won’t go!” I shouted, while beating my cursed legs as hard as I could. “What am I stillliving for?” Mother would then rush up to me, holding my hands in hers and saying betweensubdued sobs, “The two of us should live together happily, happily…”
可我却一直都不知道，她的病已经到了那步田地。后来妹妹告诉我，她常常肝疼得整宿翻来覆去地睡不了觉。
Although I did not know it, she had been seriously ill herself all the time. It was my youngersister who told me later that mother had often been kept awake the whole night with pains inthe liver.
那天我又独自坐在屋里，看着窗外的树叶唰唰啦啦地飘落。母亲进来了，挡住窗前：“北海的菊花开了，我推着你去看看吧。”她憔悴的脸上现出央求般的神色。“好吧，就明天。”我说。她高兴得一会儿坐下，一会站起：“那就赶紧准备准备。”
One day I was alone in the room, watching the rustling fall of autumn leaves through thewindow when Mother came in. She stood between me and the window and said,“Thechrysanthemums in Beihai are blossoming. Do let me take you there for a visit.” Her sad eye
